Right before you have a baby, expectant parents often go through a process called, "Nesting." They have an urge to clean, organize, and prepare their home for the new baby. I think I'm experiencing a similar phenomenon. I'm only going to be gone for 5 1/2 months, but I feel the need to go through all my closets and drawers, organize my papers, have medical check ups, revisit and update my will and more. I feel the need to have everything in order before I go. It's a change from how I normally do things which is to think of it, but not actually do it...procrastination.
One thing I really notice that's different, is the way I love my husband. I know I'm leaving him for a long time and I know I'm going to miss him so much! So, I've noticed that little things that used to irritate me, don't. Small arguments that may have been larger in the past, aren't. There's no time to be mad because our time together before the trip is short. I don't want to waste my time with him, not enjoying him. I also want to do nice things for him...make sure dinner's ready, arrange date nights, send him text messages. I'm thinking that maybe this is how I should be all the time. As someone who has lost one husband and nearly lost another, you'd think I'd NEVER take him for granted, but life happens and I forget how very blessed I am. Knowing we will only be side by side for a couple of more weeks and then it'll be a few long months apart, brings a great awareness to how very fortunate I am. I think appreciating Mike is the best nesting I'm doing. I think I'll try to make this a way of life, because appreciation breeds contentment and happiness. I'm going to miss Mike so much, but I'll worry about that once I'm on the road. For now, I'm going to text him a smile and buy tickets for a date tomorrow night.
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